As I mentioned earlier this week, we've been having a rough couple weeks.
Well, things turned for the worse this week.
I always said I would be an open blogger. And even though my blog is about small homes, interior design, crafts and the like...I also talk about family and my Doodle.
Well, last week my Doodle wasn't doing so well.
We thought they were the beginning of menstrual cramps. But after 2 days it was becoming clear it had to be something more.
After spending 10 hours Wednesday evening in the ER, we found out that she had a cyst of some sort. But the ultrasound wasn't clear what it was attached to. So, they sent us home while we waited for the results from a culture test because they thought it might just be free floating from a possible intestinal infection. And Friday we had a follow up ultrasound.
The Radiologist on Friday thought she saw a twisted ovary! So, our family doctor told her to send us to Riley Children's Hospital ER while he called ahead.
Yesterday an MRI revealed that the ovary was NOT twisted. THANK YOU GOD! BUT, there was a large cyst still there and it was not clear what it was attached to.
So, last night she finally went into surgery around 11:00 pm and had a hemorrhaged, blood filled cyst removed from her Fallopian tube.
Unfortunately, the cyst had twisted and it caused blood flow to be lost to the right Fallopian tube, so part of it had to removed.
The ovaries are fine which is a huge blessing!!!
But can I tell you as a mom...I'm sad.
Don't get me wrong, I'm thrilled she is going to be ok and her fertility is still intact. And I know that there was no choice...it what had to happen.
But I'm sad for her loss of her Fallopian tube.
I don't know if that's normal. But I am.
The doctors say she can still have children. But of course, I worry it may cause her problems in the future.
She's only 10 years old.
So, I mourned the loss of her Fallopian tube last night. That might sound strange. But it feels like she lost a part of her woman-ness. No one understood it when I felt sad. So, I don't know if its because I'm her mom or what. But her dad looked at me like I had a third head and said "But she's healthy right now and that's what matters."
And yes, that is what matters. But even the thought of her even possibly having an issue with fertility later in her life...well...it makes me sad. The doctors say she won't as long as she has one good tube.
But I'm her mom. That's my job!! To worry!! To think long term. To be scared. To want to protect her from anything and everything I can.
And maybe that is strange to others. And maybe I'm alone in feeling this way. But this is who I am!
So, today my prayers include her long term health.
I'm thankful we live in Indianapolis with one of the best children's hospitals in the world! And I'm thankful that my baby is going to be ok and pain free again!!!
If you would my friends, just say a prayer for her today, I would really appreciate it! :)
Our lives should get back to normal next week and I should be able to get back to my normal blogging. Thank you for hanging in there with me this week. :)
Until next time...