Sunday, November 14, 2010

Update and Prayers

As I mentioned earlier this week, we've been having a rough couple weeks.

Well, things turned for the worse this week.

I always said I would be an open blogger.  And even though my blog is about small homes, interior design, crafts and the like...I also talk about family and my Doodle.

Well, last week my Doodle wasn't doing so well.

We thought they were the beginning of menstrual cramps.  But after 2 days it was becoming clear it had to be something more.

After spending 10 hours Wednesday evening in the ER, we found out that she had a cyst of some sort.  But the ultrasound wasn't clear what it was attached to.  So, they sent us home while we waited for the results from a culture test because they thought it might just be free floating from a possible intestinal infection.  And Friday we had a follow up ultrasound.

The Radiologist on Friday thought she saw a twisted ovary!  So, our family doctor told her to send us to Riley Children's Hospital ER while he called ahead.

Yesterday an MRI revealed that the ovary was NOT twisted.  THANK YOU GOD!  BUT, there was a large cyst still there and it was not clear what it was attached to.

So, last night she finally went into surgery around 11:00 pm and had a hemorrhaged, blood filled cyst removed from her Fallopian tube.

Unfortunately, the cyst had twisted and it caused blood flow to be lost to the right Fallopian tube, so part of it had to removed. 

The ovaries are fine which is a huge blessing!!!

But can I tell you as a mom...I'm sad.

Don't get me wrong, I'm thrilled she is going to be ok and her fertility is still intact.  And I know that there was no choice...it what had to happen.

But I'm sad for her loss of her Fallopian tube. 

I don't know if that's normal.  But I am.

The doctors say she can still have children.  But of course, I worry it may cause her problems in the future.

She's only 10 years old.

So, I mourned the loss of her Fallopian tube last night.  That might sound strange.  But it feels like she lost a part of her woman-ness.  No one understood it when I felt sad.  So, I don't know if its because I'm her mom or what.  But her dad looked at me like I had a third head and said "But she's healthy right now and that's what matters."

And yes, that is what matters.  But even the thought of her even possibly having an issue with fertility later in her life...well...it makes me sad.  The doctors say she won't as long as she has one good tube. 

But I'm her mom.  That's my job!!  To worry!!  To think long term.  To be scared.  To want to protect her from anything and everything I can.

And maybe that is strange to others.  And maybe I'm alone in feeling this way.  But this is who I am!
 
So, today my prayers include her long term health. 

I'm thankful we live in Indianapolis with one of the best children's hospitals in the world!  And I'm thankful that my baby is going to be ok and pain free again!!!

If you would my friends, just say a prayer for her today, I would really appreciate it! :)

Thank you!!!

Our lives should get back to normal next week and I should be able to get back to my normal blogging.  Thank you for hanging in there with me this week. :)

Until next time...

10 comments:

  1. I can compleeeetely see why you feel sad, my lovely. I think operations on little ones are sometimes more traumatic for the mother than the child.

    I've had a similar-ish esperience with one of my children who had an operation and I still feel sad thinking about it now.

    Have a cyber hug from me,

    Sarahx

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  2. I am so sorry to read this. I completely understand WHY you would be worried. Thank goodness they caught this when they did, and were able to help her in a way that keeps her fertility in tact. Many blessings to your little doodle in hopes she heals quickly and things get "back to normal" asap.

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  3. I am all teary-eyed over here. I can completely understand how you feel. I would never want to struggle with fertility issues and I never have had to thankfully. And of course I would never want that for my children. I'm glad to hear that she's okay now. What a scary ordeal. (((Hugs))) to you. I hope she's back to her healthy self soon. And that she stays healthy all the days of her life. :)

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  4. As a Mother I understand 100% your concern about her future. We understand the pain that it might cause later in her life if she has troubles, miscarraiges or anything along those lines. I my dear have a third head right along with you! So glad to hear she made it through the surgery ok and is on her way to being healed. Lots of prayers. :)

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  5. Oh sweet girl!

    While I'm not a mother, I know the pain of infertility. I prayed for you guys as soon as I read this and will continue to do so until you let us know she's 100% better.

    Many Blessings,
    M.

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  6. goodness! best wishes for speedy recovery for doodle, and i am so glad that drs say she should have no trouble should she choose to have kids in the future. thank goodness they were able to diagnose the problem and treat it quickly. all the best to you and doodle! please don't feel like you have to get back to normal blogging til you and doodle are ready!

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  7. What a completely scary ordeal!! I can understand the feeling of "sad". One of the side effects of radiation is infertility. It was a thought that worried me while my son was undergoing his treatment but, I realized that for his long term health that was just a minor thing compared to the cancer tumor that had to be treated. God is in control of everything and He knows how to work it all out. This surgery came as no surprise to Him :) I will also pray that God will comfort your heart and give you peace.

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  8. What a difficult and frightening situation and I can completely understand how you feel...we all have the hope that we can protect our children from all bad things and yet they can happen. Thank goodness she is going to be alright. You are both very brave. Take care.

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  9. Thank you for visiting. Wow, what a scary time you have had and what a weird thing to happen to a 10 year old! As for Daddy,if Doddle was a boy and lost a testicle....Oh, then he would have understood, losing their manhood....Oh, they get that!

    Carol

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  10. Poor baby! I am so sorry. I couldn't have children naturally so I understand worry for her. The Lord is in control....always!!!!

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